Ooh..come to think of it, i have not been posting for 14 days. Probably busy but the freaking computer's the cause. Sick of my computer man..but im gonna get a new laptop soon. yeahs!(:
So much to post about yet so little time to write about. hahas. Went back to Northland recently and i just found out that sadly, mr ng is going to leave soon. How sad it is, he's the only teacher that changed my life entirely and he was the one that led me towards the light. Without him, his endless encouragement, jokes,and of course not forgetting his cruel scoldings hahas i wouldn't be what i am here now. Studying in a dearly good school with so many fun-filled friends around. i wouldn't be myself and realise the importance of everything around me, appreciating everything. i guess i need to slow down. yupps(: All thanks to my beloved teacher... ...(bow)
And "1st" time in my entire life, i cried. i admit i had always been the "strong" type that always put up a brave front in front of regardless who in most distressing situations but this time, i failed. i FAILED badly and i feel so damn ashamed, coming to think of it now. i reflected on why i did that and i was foolish. very indeed! just because my mum does't allow me to go to cf's hse to have a sleepover party..i CRIED! and that was the 1st ever time i cried in front of her i swore. i felt so helpless and desperate because it was hard and i cherished it dearly that we got such a rare but precious gathering tgt. i WANT IT more than ever. However, mi mum did not allow and amidst of tears and mucus, i got a earful scolding. i felt so de-moralised,downgraded and... ...i wanna broke down. but anws, we ended up sittin outside my hse at the corridor with my friends and we tok 4 ages. im so glad to have such good friends always by my side. i do cherish them.yesh i do(: i lurve you guys<3
haiz...and my mind's totally bursted now with thoughts i shouldn't think about. (of course not the sick stuffs lar). i feel im entering a world of darkness and am wondering where's the ending altho there never will be. im curious,sad,empty,mixed emotioned. im confused,very. ever wondered why u were born in this world? think about it? y u r urself? (silence)
In a world of darkness....there's no light
